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I dream about traveling..I dream about being a successful writer..I dream about having my own apartment...I dream about having my own car again...ALL I EVER DO IS DREAM! everything I fantasize about is only a figment of my imagination because I don't think it's going to happen anytime soon or EVER. Money is the only thing that can abet me. everything is all about money..MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, and last but not least...MONEY! I haven't been to another state for nearly 10 years..yes that's right 10 long years. I never really been anywhere in all of my 26 years. All I know how to do is exist because I have never lived a day in my life! All I know how to do is beg employers for a job and live miserably ever after. I lost my job, I lost my car and I lost my apartment. I moved to a college campus over a year ago just so I could have an education and a place to stay. The only reason why I enrolled in college because I needed a permanent lodging. I have an AA degree and I can't find a decent damn job. The only thing I can get is a mediocre paying job. I'm dejected and frustrated. I don't know what to do anymore..besides lay in the pit of my own misery. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I can't dance, I don't date, I don't follow religion, I don't observe holidays, I don't vote and I only have one friend. I don't know what's wrong with me..I try to do right but somehow I can't get a breakthrough..and when I do..something always go wrong for me...I'm just so fed up. I don't know what my purpose is anymore...I ask the creator to show me a sign, a glimmer of hope, anything! This is my life: Dull, empty and unfullfilled. *Sighs* What gives??????????????????????????????????