One of the Hardest Weeks of My Life!

This week had to be one of the hardest weeks of my life. It started out with one negative event and spiraled down to something-different everyday! For the first time in a long time I felt like nothing would ever be ok. I truly felt like giving up! I felt so weak and beat up that it was hard for me to get out of my bed. It was hard for me to focus on the business that I love. I didn’t want to see or speak to anyone.By Thursday most of the tears had stopped and I started feeling a little bit better. I realized that day, that most of the things I was going through, I brought on myself. I knew I would be ok. I had survived the initial shock and went through what felt like withdrawals. By Friday, I woke up motivated ready to tackle whatever challenges the J.O.B. sent my way. I worked diligently and surprisingly there were no challenges whatsoever. It started out being a very good day!Later on that night I listened to my company’s Hour of Power called. Every week we have a guest speaker who might be an agent or a professional trainer/motivational speaker. This week’s speaker was Dr. Stan Harris a.k.a. Dr. Breakthrough. This man is a phenomenal speaker! I cried and cried so much while listening to him, I felt like I was in church! Once he was finished, I could feel that I had definitely had a breakthrough.What was funny to me was that I didn’t really feel like getting on the call before I dialed in. This is just like many of the things I don’t feel like doing which put me in some of the situations that I’ve been dealing with. I’ve always been a huge procrastinator! If I don’t feel like doing something, I will put it off until the last minute or until it truly has to get done. What’s worse is I’ve been treating my business the same way. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love doing what I do, but I have a bad habit of letting life get in the way, allowing others and circumstances distract me.Today, I am thanking God for those challenges that have been put in my path. I believe these things happened to make me a better person, and to show me just how making bad decisions could affect me. It has taught me how to depend on myself and to hold myself accountable. I also believe that I have gone through and continue to go through these hard times to prepare me for the wonderful things that God has in store for me. I can go on because I know that which doesn’t kill me will only make me stronger. Right now I feel so happy and uplifted! I am glad that I didn’t give up. I know it’s never too late to start all over. I am determined more than ever to use the tools that God has given me, to become the success that I desire to be and to make all of my dreams come true!
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  • Rickey, thank you very much for your kind words! I will definitely keep on keeping on!

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  • Congratulations on moving forward. Realizing that the challenges can be beneficial. Great you could shed some tears. Better to let the stress out then hold it in . Yes, Dr Stan Harris can deliver a message that stick with you.
    You keep great company. You are destined for better things so keep on keeping on. As Les Brown says, if you can look up you can get up. Again Congratulations on your success.
  • Arzanda, it seems to be a daily challenge. Now every morning when I wake up I thank God for opening my eyes and then I go through a list of things that I am thankful for. Then I envision the way I want my life to be and I reflect on my goals. The night before I always plan what I need to do for the next day, so I look at that list to get me started. So far, so good.

    I have also become disenchanted with the J.O.B. but I right now I'm not at the point where I can let it go. I try my best to look at my duties in a positive manner and the time seems to past by faster. In the meantime, I am working hard to build my business so that I can retire from slavery soon! LOL Is there something else that you would love to do that would eventually replace your income from your job? Why don't you get something started on the side, really focus on it and see where it will take you.
  • I am sorry that your day started off rotten, believe me, I can understand lately its been hard for me to get up on Mondays to go to work, I told myself that it would be nice to find a job that I really love to do, This is hard because I like doing a lot of things and being in the federal system is really a security blanket almost like being in the military I was so secure. Was afraid to move on to something different. But I am glad that God saw you through your clouds.
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