Posted by Cynthia Brooks on September 19, 2009 at 6:21pm
We are all Saints of the Most High God, we never have problems, we never have worries, we Praise our way through all things and everything. When others seem to be going through we know what to do…….we begin praying, praising and in some instances fasting. If there is a function at the church, we, Saints of the Most High God, know what to wear, and more importantly what not to wear. We are experts on “Church Etiquette” we are foremost the most politically correct in the business in which we are in……”Soul Seeking” for the Kingdom.There is never a time that you can catch a Saint of the Most High God down in the dumps, having issues with their Faith, especially those Saints that were called by God according to his purpose. We all know that Faith is the backbone of all Religion, Salvation, and Sanctification…..because we know..”Without Faith it is impossible to please God!!!” So that subject without a doubt is taboo for a Saint to even speak on!!!Well, I stopped by today, not to tell you anything, but to make a comment……I was called into the Ministry a year or so ago, and as all of us know that once God calls you, the attack on your life openly begins. I’ve lost a house full of furniture, lost a handful of once close friends, lost confidence, lost insight, and have even lost FAITH. It’s totally against the grain to say you’re afraid, because someone will serve you notice quick…”God did not give you the spirit of fear, but of a sound mind, that’s just a trick of the enemy….. Yes, it is, but the fact still remains, once you walk away proud of the way you wielded the word of God to some obviously lost sinner, that person…guess what…..Their still scared, you know what else, they will never mention it again, because now the enemy is working overtime whispering in their ear….You can’t be called by God, your are full of fear and that is not Godly. So now they are trapped deeper than they were before they told you. Because they’re already confused, afraid and when they get the courage to tell someone, they get shut down. Sometimes we have to be careful what we say and how we say it. No…I’m not saying not to handle any and all situations with the word of God, but what I am saying is this…..You can’t feed a 3 month old baby table food, you have to feed him/her baby food. Their digestive system can’t yet handle table food. Same thing with babes in Christ….Gotta feed us what’s palatable to our systems. I’ve read the Bible, can follow along real good, but in the realm of dealing one on one with the enemy I still have some issues…..I see things, well I did, but it scared me and for now that eye is closed. I was headed on what I thought was a straight path, messed around and told a few people the things God shared with me, those people were major doubters, spent the better part of a year around people that were VERY, VERY negative….After a while I began doubting, began second guessing…even stopped attending church. Watched it faithfully on T.V., but didn’t go.I have had so many things that I wanted to share with people and always got the same response. Oh I might go through something for a minute, but after that it’s over or gurl…you better pray, fast and wait on the Lord…Yes, oh God a thousand times yes, I know all this, but what happens when you’ve done all that, when you’ve cried out in prayer and you get no answer. What happens when in the midst of all of this the bottom falls slam out….what happens when while you’re on your knees, you are being knocked around by life……what happens when after all this, you lose FAITH??I have gone through this battle alone, and I guess that’s how God wanted it. While going through I am learning to really, totally depend on him and him alone!!We know the God we serve sits high and looks low and while I am quietly going through this battle, I couldn’t understand how people all seem to be doing well. I mean every time I talk to someone, life is all peaches and cream…Don’t get me wrong, not everybody is going through something at this point and time, but if you’ve ever been through anything, you should be able to share that with someone.The lives we as Ministers/Evangelists/Pastors/Preachers and Teachers come in contact with are usually in a seriously frail state, and so that makes it easy to tell who is truly going through something and who isn’t. But the more seasoned Saints/Preachers/Pastors should tap into their discernment when talking to those of us just starting this journey, those of you that are anchored should be the eyes, ears and hearts of those of us who are new and beginning, because we are new and our warfare isn’t as strong as those who have been on the battle field for a long time, I’m sure there is an exception to the rule, and that someone was called by God and hit the floor running. If that’s you….praise God, Hallelujah….I’m speaking to only those who can attest to this. Those who had a fight to get where God was trying to take them and even to those of us who are still fighting.I guess what I’m trying to say is, we are all in this together and the one thing that no other SAINT has said to me is that there would be days, weeks, months and in some cases years that you’d be so lost, that you would STOP, stop praising, I mean just going through the motions, just not putting your heart in it….Lost, I prayed, because I knew the prayer, I sang with the choir, stood when the Pastor/Preacher hit a good point, when the adrenaline was high in church I was in the moment, but I didn’t/couldn’t feel a thing……Oh I know what you’re thinking……she was faking it. But I didn’t want to, didn’t try to, I was lost, confused, begging inwardly for help…praying/prayed that someone, would recognize the symptoms, no one seemed to notice, everyone smiled, called me a blessed woman of God, I was begging, begging without a voice, because I was gripped in fear……Afraid that someone would say……. Did you hear what she just said???? How could she be called by God, and be so full of self doubt, how could she walk beside me in battle and she doubts the God I serve, the God I gave my life to…how could she????Well that’s exactly how???? Because the God you….and I serve, called ME, don’t know how, and certainly not why…but he did and as I go through this I have to remember, HE CALLED ME!!! I didn’t and couldn’t call myself, not my momma nor my daddy, but HE called me, so he knew I’d get to this point, he knew I’d have to deal with this doubt, but in my doubt, my fear, my stopping, even in all of this he’s strengthening me, and my earnest Prayer in all of this, is that he’ll equip me to help those in doubt, in fear, in confusion, at their stopping point, to encourage them to keep holding on. I pray that God would allow me to see, hear and feel there pain, doubt, fears, so that I can stand in the gap for my brothers and sisters as God fills them with his Holy Spirit.I am asking all of you, my brothers and sisters in Christ, to talk to that person(s) that you know has been recently called and even some who may have been called a while ago. Talk to them, share your testimony, pray with them, and pray for them. Lend them your ear, your wisdom, your strength….. No you can’t make them believe, you can’t save them, or fill them with the Holy Spirit, but you can send up your prayers to the Most High God and he……and he……and he shall direct their path, our paths…..Praise God……. The point for this blog, is that there are too many men and women in Christ that slip through the crack, and I thank God for the increase as he laid this on my heart today, because I was slipping… yea you can say they didn’t have FAITH in God, you can say then they weren’t truly called by God…but how do you know? Can you really single out people and say….naw, she wasn’t, naw, he wasn’t……God calls those he has need of, for whatever reason, reasons we will never know. But what could be done is that we band together as Saints of the Most High God and help one another…..LEARN ONE, DO ONE, TEACH ONE seek out that man or woman of God, talk to them, pray with them, teach them, show them that they are not alone and that everybody…..okay almost everybody that was and will be called will go through a time of doubt, fear, questioning..Please Saints, let’s band together in Christ..Just imagine how much stronger the Kingdom would be if we only looked down on another man just to help him up!! Amen!!!
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