What a great question...one that really makes you think and has the power to take you back a bit, for me anyway.
I can remember finding refuge in myself..I was very shy growing up. Growing up and thinking negative things about yourself has a way of keeping you hostage within yourself that's how I was. It took many years for me to come out of my own personal and protective refuge, I felt safe their, I felt that I didn't have to relate to anyone unless I wanted to.
I turned to books, and old movies as a way in seeing and being in a world where I felt that's where I wanted to be to fill some of the loneliness and confusion in my life. Then as I went into my teen years I began to take refuge behind other people, they seem to have everything I desired so I wanted to be apart of that. It took me away from my own personal trials..and sadness that I still felt...I wanted to be excepted and would become someone else so that I could stay apart of a group...
But what happened next changed my life completely, I became personal with my FATHER (heavenly father). And when I found out how much my FATHER loved me, and how much my FATHER look at me as his beautiful baby girl...and that He is always their for me, and I didn't have to be someone I wasn't in order to be accepted. My refuge is in my FATHER'S arms, my FATHERS mind, my FATHERS heart, my FATHER'S love. My FATHERS faithfullness is my refuge.
Right now I am working to find that in my life. In general it is my faith, but right now that is not where it needs to be - I have taken my eyes off my refuge, which God has promised to be for each of us.
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I can remember finding refuge in myself..I was very shy growing up. Growing up and thinking negative things about yourself has a way of keeping you hostage within yourself that's how I was. It took many years for me to come out of my own personal and protective refuge, I felt safe their, I felt that I didn't have to relate to anyone unless I wanted to.
I turned to books, and old movies as a way in seeing and being in a world where I felt that's where I wanted to be to fill some of the loneliness and confusion in my life. Then as I went into my teen years I began to take refuge behind other people, they seem to have everything I desired so I wanted to be apart of that. It took me away from my own personal trials..and sadness that I still felt...I wanted to be excepted and would become someone else so that I could stay apart of a group...
But what happened next changed my life completely, I became personal with my FATHER (heavenly father). And when I found out how much my FATHER loved me, and how much my FATHER look at me as his beautiful baby girl...and that He is always their for me, and I didn't have to be someone I wasn't in order to be accepted. My refuge is in my FATHER'S arms, my FATHERS mind, my FATHERS heart, my FATHER'S love. My FATHERS faithfullness is my refuge.