Sometimes we find out the hard way...
On that day I decided to take things into my own hands
To find a get rich quick skeem seemed to be the plan
But things didn't turn out the way I had visioned
A shot to my body made by someone's instant decision…
to take my life.
I know that my reasoning for the robbery wasn't right
Didn't think that the decision made would take my life
Didn't think that I would be the one laying there motionless
Didn't think I would be in a position that would leave me helpless.
Hanging with the wrong crowd could've been why this took place
Didn't know that my life would end this way
So now how do I ever get a chance to change my mind
How about I paint a portrait of my forgiveness in the sky.
When we hear of children losing their lives we think we're invisible
Living like it will never be us will have us doing the unthinkable
I bet you wonder why I was out at that time of night anyway
God was getting ready to call me home is all I can say.
I know the tears fill the eyes of my family and friends
And I know the hurt and the pain has only began
I know that it'll be hard to open up your hearts and forgive
But God knew on that very day that it would be the last moment I live.
And as we know, things truly happen for a reason
And I know that my death to ya'll wasn't all that pleasing
And I know that the blame weigh heavy on your hearts
But maybe If I was standing in their shoes that shot may have not been that hard…
to take.
And me saying that, I know doesn't replace the fact that I'm gone
And no matter how I try to make it sound, my death will always seem so wrong
And we may say that there were other ways around this
But at that single moment, I found that…
God called me home to be with Him that day
He sent one of the most beautiful angels to come and carry me away
He left with you memories to enjoy
And gave me away to try and help every young girl and boy by…
Sending these words to say that life is really precious
And you don't have to die so that others learn a lesson
While you have the chance it's time to turn things around
And we need to stand up and put the guns down
And we need to learn to make better decisions
And watch who you hang with and don't let peer pressure have u wishing..
you would've made better choices.
Let these words as you read them be a positive voice that says,
God wants better for our lives and our parents love us more than that
Take your spare time and give that love back
And though my life is no longer, these words to you I give
Let my death be the reason that you live.
I'm out,
Qualynn Dabney
(Written by Leukemiona Daniels, 2010)
